Happiest I have ever been

So Tim and I more or less have spent the last 10 days thinking about homes and houses (and house in particular) for our burgeoning family. We've spent hours on websites, days in Quicken, and enough time to go blind in spreadsheets. We've had some great conversations about budgets, spending, income, goals, and time lines. We've obsessed down to the penny on how we stack up, and the good news is that we stack up pretty well financially -- a life time of saving seems to be paying off. But better than that, though, is how we've spent the last 10 days as a couple working through hard financial topics. We've done it with complete honesty, integrity, tenderness, love, and patience.... I own the fact that I got a little cranky on Saturday (sheepish grin).

Last night, I lay awake reading like I always do, as an exhausted Tim fell asleep with his hand on Monday. I could feel Monday moving around and I could feel Tim on my belly, and never have I felt more connected and where I am supposed to be than I felt last night before I went to sleep. I then proceeded to have the best night sleep in a very long time. I have woken up elated, optimistic, and full of hope.

I dreamed of Monday as a child for the first time ever. He was in our back yard and had fallen in love with a tree who loved him back -- though I am not sure what that actually means, if we can provide a fraction of the loving environment that Monday-of-my-dreams felt in our back yard, then we will succeed as parents and a family.